I am not there (dedicated to the day when I received news of my mother passing away)

Remzike Sherifi

I am not there

Sky in darkness,

rumbling thunder,

fog and storm,

waves in the sea.

I am at a crossroads alone

With no solution where to go

My pathways are blocked

The spiral of a tornado threw me into lava of an erupting volcano I feel buried under arctic ice And my blood and bones are frozen Earth under my feet is shaking Everything around me collapsed I got the news my mother was gone

From my eyes I cry blood

Pain in my spirit and my soul

With a broken heart I have a stone in my chest I can't find peace and serenity As a shadow, guiltiness will follow me for the rest of my life With no comfort Guilt for not being there for my mother's last destination For her last wish and last goodbye To put a handful of soil and red roses on top of her coffin.

My pathways are blocked

I don't have a solution

I am not there...