Integrity during hard times

Good morning.

For Christians, these are the last days we see Jesus after his Crucifixion and before his ascension to heaven. We watch him appear to disciples on the road, in a room, by the sea - resurrected from death but still bearing his wounds and the disciples talk to him about their trauma, grief and fears.

Given the chance, I would ask why he called out hypocrites’, corrupt businesses and betrayers but agreed to the unjust and appalling crucifixion. ‘Have faith,’ I imagine him saying, reminding me that his actions always radically call out all wrongs, not for revenge, but in faith.

These days have made me reflect on the times I’ve acted as if bad things happening around me were acceptable. Even when they could be wounding. Sometimes I focussed on the good in the hope of steering a positive direction, which can work; but when it didn’t, I noticed a fear of the consequences: what would happen if I called these people out? And over time, being around corrupt behaviour made me cower inside.

Walking along the roadside with Jesus, I saw that despite his wounds, he had a deep sense of self-worth and the belief in a better world. He knew that we are literally designed to be ethical, which means constantly asking ‘what should I do for the greater good?’ Despite his wounds, he demonstrated such integrity that I found a new strength and made the commitment to learn how to speak out in new ways.

God, help me find the self-worth beyond my wounds, the strength to stand up for change and the wisdom to act for the greater good in faith.

Amen.